Currently, I am in the middle of reading a book called “From Grouchy to Great”. The author, Ruth Schwenk, talks about how being cranky reveals your idols in your life. What a powerful thought. After reading this chapter, I stopped and thought of the things that make me cranky and if I am honest with myself, the lack of sleep and personal time makes me cranky towards my family and others. So, I guess you could say my idol is selfishness.
The more this thought lingered in my heart the more I realized it was true. I am the first to admit that I am bad at spending time with God. Why is it so hard for me? Because, at the end of the day, all I want to do is sleep or have time to myself. Wow, how selfish that sounds. I am more concerned about getting my personal care than I am about spending time with my Creator. I don’t put others before myself and I especially don’t put God before myself. It is all about me, me, me, me.
How many times do we do that though? We work a long day, come home, make dinner, do the dishes and decide we are done so we tune out. Our children longing for time with us, our spouses needing our attention, and God wanting to spend time with us too. Yet, we decide that Facebook, TV, or a videogame is more important.
I am not saying that self care is bad. In fact, I strongly believe that self care is the most important thing you can do for yourself and for your family but self care is not just relaxing in front of your favorite TV show or indulging in your favorite book. Self care also includes time with God. When we spend time in God’s word, we are growing, learning, and hearing from God.
What makes you cranky? Could it be possible that those things are your idols? I want to encourage you to reflect on this idea as I have and see what idols may be holding your heart.