When I am asked by a supervisor or boss, “Where do you see yourself in 10 years”, that is a difficult question for me to answer. I am currently working as a Compliance Officer at a credit union in Colorado and have been told that my boss wants me to be the Chief Operations Officer. What an exciting opportunity for me! Right? I feel blessed and honored for him to have thought of me and have the confidence in me to take on that task. I know I can do the job and I think it will open up so many opportunities for me in the future. So why don’t I feel excited sometimes? During this time of studying to be a COO, I have been assigned to meet with a coach and talk about my career. He gave me a book to read and in the book, it asks, “Where do you see yourself in 10 years?”
This question haunts me and is a difficult one for me to answer. In 10 years, I don’t want to be in the financial industry any more. I want to be in the art world or editorial field. I want to hold regular gallery showings, make money off of crafts I have made, write childrens books and illustrate them myself. But is that where God wants me? That is the ultimate question. Luckily I work for a boss who shares the same religious background as I do so talking to him about this topic is not such a daunting task but there is still a part of me that fears this conversation in the future.
If I were truthful, I would say I am not passionate about my line of business. I am a hard worker and will come to work to do my job, but at the end of the day, I do not have the passion that I see in most of my coworkers. So what should I do? Do I pursue a career that would provide nothing at first until I am further down the road with the possibility of it never turning into anything? Or, do I stay in a career where I have no passion but will make enough money in the future to provide in ways I never thought imaginable? It is the ultimate struggle for me right now.
I don’t know the answer and will continue to pray while I wait but that is the most crucial point. John Waller signs a song called, “While I’m Waiting”. It talks about all the things to do while you wait. John Waller sings, “moving ahead bold and confident”, “taking every step in obedience”, “I will serve you”, “I will worship”, “I will not fade”. Wow, what some powerful thoughts during a time of waiting. So let’s break this down.
Moving ahead bold and confident: Being stuck thinking about what you want instead of moving forward is one of the worst places to be. If I sat all day at work thinking about what I would rather be doing with my life I wouldn’t get my job done and would probably get fired. Instead, I should move forward with my life being bold and confident that God has an amazing plan for me. Even if His plan is not going to be what I want or what I expected, I need to move forward and know that there is something great in store for me.
Taking every step in obedience: How silly would we be if we told God that we didn’t want to follow His plan anymore. What we think we want for our life could end up being our downfall and make us crash and burn in so many ways. But if God tells me, April, your place is in this Credit Union until you retire, I should listen. I would be stupid to disobey my Heavenly Father. He has my back and I need to trust that.
I will serve you: During this time of waiting, the greatest thing we can do is get involved in the act of service. Go serve at your church, your local food bank, or nursing home. There are a thousand ways and places to serve. During that time of service, you will grow spiritually. So during your time of waiting, you can grow spiritually in ways you would have never grown if you didn’t serve.
I will worship: Worshiping God in what He has already done for us is so important. We can complain and whine about what we don’t have all day but then we will miss out on the many blessings God has already given us. For example, I can whine and complain all day about my job and sit at home at the end of the day to pout but then I would be missing out on the wonderful gift God gave me in my daughter. She is one amazing girl and, honestly, is becoming one of my best friends. Being thankful is a part of worshiping God. Be thankful for all of the things you have in this life. Start by writing down ten of them.
I will not fade: The only way we won’t fade during this time of waiting is to be in God’s word. Being in the Word gives us a supernatural strength for each day. If we do not have that strength, we will wither and fade away. This is an area I am failing in even today. I feel myself slowly fading away because I don’t see how our future will be set and what I will be doing. I am fading in the thought of doing this job that I am not passionate about. I need to jump back on the wagon and start reading God’s word on a daily basis. Want to join me?
Look, I am not perfect, I say this time and time again. I am learning and growing just like you but no matter where we are in our journey, let’s plant our feet firm in knowing that we are where we need to be and see how God wants us to grown and serve in this place of waiting.